Breaking Down Internal Structures

Happy Friday tribe! It’s time to face those inner structures that are no longer serving you. The outside world is calling on you to make the change, and we can only do that by facing these patterns and fears that are no longer serving us.

These past two days for me has been a push into a new paradigm, and Love at the end of the day is the only option. I have been in this new, conscious, evolutionary partnership for only a couple of months now, and in all honesty, it’s easier for me to be alone. I have my life very well designed, I am raising two teenage boys, and although I was lonely sometimes, I could go my own way and be by myself. And that is not at all what I want. When I set the intention three years ago to call in a Beloved, I had no idea how much inner work I would need to do in order to hold the space for this new man. And now that it’s here, it would easy to move away from it and be alone. But that is not highest and best, and that would be because I was too afraid to look my inner dragons in the eye and call myself out.

We all have inner structures that we built up through life that were there to keep us safe. That was the old paradigm of consciousness and it had us protect our hearts in order not to be hurt. Every single one of us on this planet has this capability to live in such emotional, open heart stability, but the choices we made along the way in our lives moved us away from this Love. And now, all around us, we see patterns and structures breaking down, and it is our personal responsibility to look at ourselves, see where we are not allowing the Love to come through, love that part of ourselves so it can dissolve into the Light, and we rise even farther on our spiritual path. It is brave, courageous, strong, and the ONLY option that we have.

And so yesterday, after a conversation with my lovely man that was freaking scary for me to voice my truth, my old structures wanted to shut me down. That, dear tribe, is the darkness. Call it what you want, but the dark will seduce you into thinking you are in control, you have all the answers, you are better off alone. I know with all my heart I want this partnership, and so I just sat with this inner struggle. It was a knot in my belly, and when I could muster the courage sourced form the Divine, I sent it Love. This is th

e process. This is how we shift.

This morning on my run (this is a huge way that I process – find something

that really works for you and go to that when you need it!), I saw what was happening. It all became so clear. Darkness, old fears and patterns, were wanting to run the show. Fortunately this is not my first go-around with looking my inner demons in the eye. I stood strong and firm in my resolve, and I loved myself. And it shifted. Scary? Yeah. But it would be way more scary if I let the myself slide into the same old patterns because we need to become the bigger space for this change. In order for us to be this shining light, we have to create the bigger container within ourselves to hold the Love. I do a very good job of that already, and now Spirit is moving me into even more. I am good with that. Better than good. And this relationship, for however long it is here – ending tomorrow or forever – is helping me in infinite ways to be brighter, more loving of myself and others, and heck, having fun with another beautiful human.

Look at your dragons today and see where Spirit is wanting you to move. Don’t be afraid. Know you are recognizing and bringing to light a higher, more beautiful you that is soul-filled, infinite, and here to bring about this change. It’s the only thing going, and the best thing out there.

I saw a hummingbird on my run, and soon after a song on my Ipod came through with the lyrics: “Let the hummingbird come teach us song. Drinking of the nectar palm to palm. Allies come to fill our well, meaningful music keeps us filled. Into the World we come to play.”

I am standing with you, palm to palm, and we do this together, heart to heart to heart. Shine bright, love your inner dragons, and see what you can manifest today. We are Love. xo