Calling in a life partner

Beloveds!! The seasons are changing, and we are through the many retrogrades of August. I am hopeful that you were able to clear more if you needed and anchor in more of your Love and Light. There is a new landscape arising, and it’s a joy to witness the birthing of this Unity consciousness.
Some of you are aware of my intense desire to call in a life partner, and this has been my intention for about the past three years. 

My journey has taken me to inner dimensions that have been filled with such pain, loneliness, and a mire of struggles both internally and externally. I did not think that it would take me this long. I thought it would be relatively easy, and life had better options for me. I certainly did not think this during some deep, dark nights (and days), but this extreme, almost demanding desire would not let go of me, and so I kept clearing, releasing, forgiving, learning to trust, and surrendering to a will that was not my own but to one of Source. My soul, and my destiny, always new the better path, and I chose to move with that flow, and I am beyond grateful that I did.

Through my trainings in Feminine Power and Claire Zammit, studies with Jean Houston and Matt Kahn, and with my spiritual coach Heide, my outer world is now starting to reflect my innermost desires. I have found my life purpose and calling, I move with authentic confidence, I have shifted lifetimes of limiting patterns, and I am now starting to see outer results of calling in my Beloved.

My main, underlying pattern has been one of not being lovable. And so in that old paradigm, my outer experiences in life have been to attract men that were not available in one form or another because my inner dynamics were not lined up for what I was truly desiring. And what can certainly happen is that one area in your life will become activated – for me it was moving into spiritual coaching – that will then continue your growth in a different area you are wanting to create in (for me calling in a partner.) In this divine way of moving, when you can learn to listen to how Spirit wants you to move and activate your highest potentials, you will never be off course in your deepest and truest intentions and desires.

So after speaking with Heide, we decided I would take the month of August to just dive in one more time to clear anything that was blocking me from receiving what I desired. I set aside any need to meet someone or to go on dates. The month was going to be for me alone, and I was very happy to do so. There was so much internal movement. I cleared many things including the need to have this partner. It is okay to have desires and want them, but if you NEED it in order to be happy, you are not ready for it. This time around, however, I did the clearings with joyful Love and tremendous compassion for myself. No need for endless suffering. Some pain, yes, but very rare, and I was just grateful to be in a place where I could meet myself with such tenderness. As many of you know, I did not start out here – far from it. But with commitment and consistency, it can be done.

So the beginning of September, and with a huge breakthrough at the end of August around not feeling safe, I felt ready to go back on one dating site. I have been on many sites before and have not had one date with anyone on any of the sites. I either liked them and they didn’t like me or vice versa. Yesterday I went on two dates, and one guy definitely stands out. I am not putting any pressure on him or myself to label this as anything else as we are getting to know each other, (contrary to the past when I would be trying to figure out if this one was the One,) and I am so deeply centered within myself that even if it goes nowhere, I am grateful for the experience. My outer world is starting to reflect my desires.

And that is the point of this entire story. Transformation, and the purpose of all this self-knowledge and discovery and inquiry, is to create and have a life that is reflective of your desires. A by-product is that you have a tremendous amount of emotional freedom, happiness and joy. The Love that you anchor for yourself expands and anchors for others. I can’t think of anything better.

In honor of you and your destinies and deepest desires. Through manifesting through the Love, we can create a World here that is as Above. We are Love. xo